Surviving with tough men when you are short and fat

I am so tired of having to portray myself as a man who is capable of being physically tough.
At just over five feet and five inches in my heels, and being much, much more, than just a little overweight, I know the truth is, that I was never built for physical violence of any kind with anyone.
Why do I do pretend?
Because I was bullied at school and at work for being short and fat.
It is not my fault. Why are so many men, tough and rough.
Padraig Caughey